Saturday, August 9, 2014

Caturday: The Right Life

For those of you who noticed the wonky posting schedule this week, I apologize. I intended to get something out on Friday but I've been busy doing this:

It's crunch time on the final edit of my fantasy novel The Lonely Dark. This is the final go-around before sending out two partials and preparing queries (I'm being hopeful but realistic about the partials). If you have no idea what that means, don't worry. You'll find out soon enough as I complete the Writing a Novel series here on the blog.

As I approach the 2/3 point in the book, I've reached a place where I can't put it down. The action is carrying me quickly towards the inevitable confrontation, and though I already know the ending I find myself eager to turn the page and find out what happens next. That's always a good sign.

Friday's post was going to be another #yesistruggle with depression post. In lieu of that, allow me to update you on my journey.

There's been overwhelming support from my online communities. Fewer people are telling me I have an attitude problem and need to get over myself. Many thanks to you who have opened up about your own struggles with depression. The conversations supporting one another have been beautiful.

I feel better some days. I still wrestle with eating and some days I feel really antisocial. I struggle with not seeing the severity of my problem and passing my apathy off as normal. But I'm also giving myself a lot of grace and accepting that some days I need alone time from people.

That said, it's the people I'm daily in contact with who keep me going. I'm so glad I'm blogging my journey and getting this out there, because it's kept me from the isolation that usually accompanies and reinforces depression.

Having the support of good friends has made a huge difference in the depth and scope of the mental fog. Normally my depression-mind assumes nobody cares or can help me, an attitude which keeps me insular and digs the claws deeper into my brain. In reality, people help purely by their continued existence as my friends. Participating in life-as-usual with them bolsters me more than anything else.

That's me. How are you doing? Leave an update in the comments at the bottom of the page. I always love hearing what you guys have to say.

Have a fantastic weekend!

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